[That night, Shinjiro can't sleep. He gives it a good, genuine try, at least, but after staring at his ceiling in vain for an hour, he gets on his shoes and decides to go for a walk. Clear his head at least a little, maybe tire himself enough that he can properly pass out instead of fixating on Amada being here and apparently no longer bearing a grudge and staying at his place for lack of anywhere else to go.
It's hard not to think about it, though; the issue lingers right at the forefront of his mind and he keeps tripping over it, like a sore in your mouth which you keep accidentally brushing your tongue against. This wasn't the way it was supposed to be, the traitorous whispers insist. Amada was supposed to get closure and move on when he bled out in that alley. Having the opportunity to mend fences, to start over? It's dizzying, terrifying.
(He doesn't deserve it)
Eventually, he gives up and heads back, and when he returns to his bed and still can't sleep, he fetches his phone so he can pass the time idly scrolling the network. Only -- he hits the wrong button, and a list of contacts comes up instead, with k.kitsuragi pointedly at the top of recents.
...]
yo you awake?
[If he isn't, Shinjiro can simply later deny having had anything he wanted to talk about, he figures.]
text; like 3 am the night ken arrives
It's hard not to think about it, though; the issue lingers right at the forefront of his mind and he keeps tripping over it, like a sore in your mouth which you keep accidentally brushing your tongue against. This wasn't the way it was supposed to be, the traitorous whispers insist. Amada was supposed to get closure and move on when he bled out in that alley. Having the opportunity to mend fences, to start over? It's dizzying, terrifying.
(He doesn't deserve it)
Eventually, he gives up and heads back, and when he returns to his bed and still can't sleep, he fetches his phone so he can pass the time idly scrolling the network. Only -- he hits the wrong button, and a list of contacts comes up instead, with k.kitsuragi pointedly at the top of recents.
...]
yo
you awake?
[If he isn't, Shinjiro can simply later deny having had anything he wanted to talk about, he figures.]